My 65th year on this planet, in this lifetime, has been a very special time, thus far. Entering this phase of life, toward “retirement age”, has been with purpose showing up when unexpected.
Involvement in a relationship that encompasses all aspects of Trust, Faith, Transparency, Authenticity, Love, Friendship, Comfort and so much more, has unlocked deep sensing Awe. It has triggered an awakened state of being whose dormancy cannot be returned to. Along with the positive energies further awakened and flowing stumble in some negatives to be dealt with.
Fear, uncertainty, doubt have no place here now, other than to serve as a means for stirring up the Assurances that seem Angel guided and obvious. Still, they seep in when our connection is abbreviated, questioned and even all but unplugged at the moment.
Inner work seems tantamount to further securing what confidence and guidance bring forth. Separate transformations and spiritual dealings have what seemed to be a certain future feeling less secure. Baited breath and apprehension give way to breath taken away and a glorious sense of everlasting Love, and these opposing energies go back and forth between as limited communication can easily lead to speculation.
Still, with the Kripalu School of Outdoor Leadership training now in place, additional tools for dealing with these uncertainties and life in general come strongly to bear in this moment. Breathe!!!
The continued desire and willingness to be in support, while staying out of the way, make this time clumsy at best. The strong established base of Love and Trust is tested, yet remaining safe in current day to day traffic. At times, I feel helpless in trying to stay in the present time, while praying for the future.
Though I sometimes catch myself in questioning what I know and believe, when grounded and centered I feel a security that says, “when you’re done with transformation, I’ll be right here”. “Come back to me, I won’t fail you.”
Somehow, the various forms of distance currently present both challenge and enhance the basic undeniable positive force I/We have in place. Simply stated, “I’m here”, “I’m not going away”. In saying, “I give”, a surrendering took place and a promise made, which is of sacredness and authenticity.
Walk with me. Please.
Peter J Quandt