For months now, I’ve had this feeling that I need to let go of something. But, what? Is there a relationship I need to let go of? Is there some trauma or drama I am hanging onto? Perhaps, it’s a present job or expectation. What is it? This sense of letting go of something has persisted, while the subject has eluded me.
In recent days, and even a week or two, I’ve gained custody of the subject of this wondering. Quite simply, I need to let go of resistance. This resistance shows up in a form that I would not have expected.
My connection with Nature, the Trees in particular, has never been stronger. At least, not that I have recognized. I feel drawn to spending more time “out there”, and bemoan the fact that I have to have a “day job” in order to meet ends, when what I really want to do is spend every day wandering about the Woods and Mountains, Lakes and Streams, Ocean and Prairies, following wherever the Wind and the energies draw me. Yet, when I do have time to spend in these places, my time is limited, my energy is reserved.
I limit my time in the wilds with such thoughts such as, “this will take a couple 2, 3 hours and then I have the rest of the day to do what I want”. Then, when I am out there and loving it, the background noise of my limiting self is about setting a time limit to sitting quietly, a restriction (again having to do with time) to how far to travel, how long to be there. I begin to feel an energy drawing at me and engage with that energy, then limit it as if to say, “okay, I feel that, I’ll spend some time, another time, in going deeper with it.
NOOOOOOO!!!! What I really need to be doing is taking advantage of the connections and energies I feel, when I feel them! Let the moment supersede this sense of limiting time! Letting go of this resistance to being in the moment and letting the moment last for however long it will is tantamount to breaking this pattern of being governed by Man’s time. There is no “Man’s time” in Nature nor the realm of Angels and Spirit and all things directly related to the flow of Universal Energies. This “Man’s time” is a learned trait of this lifetime that needs to be unlearned. It’s backwards! It should not be time spent in communing with Nature and all things Spiritual being governed by “Man’s time”. Rather, our connection to the Universe and all things Spiritual should be our priority with the mundane existence of Man being that which is limited.
Of course living in this day and age and having a job and appointments and responsibilities are governed by the realm of Man’s time. That’s understood. However, when the whole of our life is governed by that same clock, it taints and limits our capabilities in Spirit. The point here is that our time outside of that which is required to accomplish the mundane tasks of day to day living should not be governed by the same clock as the mundane. There is no specific time in Spirit. Things happen when they are going to happen. And, when they happen, we need to (I need to) allow the wonders and magick of this timelessness to unfold without restriction.
Anyway, what I really want to say is that the Douglass Fir have been extending me an invitation to come and visit them. Yet, all they ever ask of me is to “stand with them, for awhile”.
Walk with me.
Peter J Quandt